A Building Of No Stairway.

Sunday, February 14, 2010,

So,I went to UAE for few days..I wanted to have some relaxation, little booze, and to live a nice night life there...In Dubai,I arrived to the airport, got my lagguage, and went to the way to exit to (life)..
The first thing i noticed was that police man, who dare his friends to stop this torrist because he likes the hair..!!
Stopped me, saying excuse me, your passport please!
I Answered him in arabic, that my passport is in the bag, and if there is anything that I can help him with!!
He apologized, and stepped back outta shock!!

I dunno, but it seemed that this visit to Dubai was a total Gender Trauma....for everyone who dealt with me, starting from the reception lady, Mariana, to the Other police man in my way leaving to Bahrain!!

I step into any store in Dubai Mall or Mall of Emirate, a Shopping assistant comes to me everytime saying *Hi Sir, How can I Help you* and when I turn around some of them (Who recognized me being not a guy) would immediatelly replied with *Oh ma'am*..!!
I Know it confuses them, but I feel the same for whole of ma life...I Dunno where to belong to.... females' side, or males' side.... A girl or a Boy!! I really dont know....

I felt freedom... I felt that since everybody is living the same situation of me I would be alright...I just felt that am living like (the real me) No Abaya, Or head's Vail.... No restictions, on what I am doing or why I am doing it.... No One to judge me, If I stood outta the hotel enterance, smoking a cigi....!!

Damn......I really Liked that trip....I also knew that....I am neither a He, nor a She!!

Labels: androgyne, ftm, gender, sexuality, trauma

11:51 AM

I believe that Strangers are Friends (who need to be introduced to us). I am a professional nap taker, I cut my own hair, I go to coloring parties...the kind with coloring your self and getting really messy! They are pretty much my favorite, I like string cheese AND fruit roll ups, I rock out in my car (thou am not driving it nowadays...law wont allow me to do so.... ) But I am used to do that whenever I had the chance (Rules are there to break them..aiight)! I’m good at school but suck at life, I wear too many bracelets, I like the water far too much, I write poetry, I am an athlete, or lets say...I'm trying to be! (will blog the process..dont miss it) I am clumsy, I love riding bikes...I fall off my bike a lot, But I don't cry! I am ""LEO"". we are the best that I know of, I like HTML,Blogging,Networking,Meditating, I hate street sweepers, people that play games - especially those (specific) Guys - suck at life, pushy people suck, I love to dance like a moron, I like going nuts like waaaaahhhh, I smile when I wake up to my phone alarm playing just like heaven by the cure, slide and thrust makes me laugh, my room is never clean...ever....That's why Mom hired 3 maids. One to look for ma place! I mix bbq and ranch sauce when I eat Nachos, apparently I wear my watch backwards, I get pierced when I am bored, I love taking stupid pictures......I would put one up on here, BUT C'mon! They are stupid Pictures... they should be viewed by FRIENDS...>!! I'm not into Shallow Ppl….Deep ppl attracts me! ~{{!Interrupt Me~{{! RoooooooaR!!!