A Building Of No Stairway.

Friday, March 26, 2010,

Once an adult in disguise,

her knowledge greater than her years.

Her grown-up points of view belied

her sickening inner fears.

Her courage was but terror

and her strength was but her pain.

She determined that no one would ever

hurt her bad again.

Now the woman has a longing

for the childhood she has missed.

She yearns to turn the clock back

prior to the haze and mist,

to when life was all a sniff of sun,

a petalled ball of light,

when she loved and lived at leisure,

and where love was liquid night.

But that all seems far away now,

all those years have since then passed,

unable now to recollect

the scenes behind the mask.

Her memory protects her,

closes off her probing mind,

welding shut the doors of darkness hiding

nightmare truths behind.

Doesn’t she know she’ll never not remember

if she finds the truth?

Doesn’t she realise she’ll wish she had of

died within her youth?

‘Cause the pain that is unearthed is nigh

impossible to bear .....

and I know just how she feels,

‘cause I’ve been there.

7:59 AM

Saturday, March 20, 2010,

Democracy

to see your lover cheats on

you, but you just ignore it..coz its none of your business!!

Androgynus:

A Latin word means, andro: man

and gyne: woman ...but from what I experience in every day's actual life:
Ya'

Dunno what ya really are.. Every body mistakes with your (title) calling you
(Mr..) while you suppose to be (ms.) !! a loss of identity, and a huge
feeling
of (not- belonging)..

in modern countries, it would

be fixed by a psycho-therapy sessions, and identifying ur gender
assistmant,then

gender correction..surgery and thats it....!!

but it means, that ya want be

able to get married, nor have normal relationship..coz it confuses you !

"In CLOSET" :

Means, you

suppose to work ur ass hard to be such a girl while it hurts you from
inside!!

"BLESSED"

a
Coffee, a chick @ ur own place !!

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2:01 PM

I believe that Strangers are Friends (who need to be introduced to us). I am a professional nap taker, I cut my own hair, I go to coloring parties...the kind with coloring your self and getting really messy! They are pretty much my favorite, I like string cheese AND fruit roll ups, I rock out in my car (thou am not driving it nowadays...law wont allow me to do so.... ) But I am used to do that whenever I had the chance (Rules are there to break them..aiight)! I’m good at school but suck at life, I wear too many bracelets, I like the water far too much, I write poetry, I am an athlete, or lets say...I'm trying to be! (will blog the process..dont miss it) I am clumsy, I love riding bikes...I fall off my bike a lot, But I don't cry! I am ""LEO"". we are the best that I know of, I like HTML,Blogging,Networking,Meditating, I hate street sweepers, people that play games - especially those (specific) Guys - suck at life, pushy people suck, I love to dance like a moron, I like going nuts like waaaaahhhh, I smile when I wake up to my phone alarm playing just like heaven by the cure, slide and thrust makes me laugh, my room is never clean...ever....That's why Mom hired 3 maids. One to look for ma place! I mix bbq and ranch sauce when I eat Nachos, apparently I wear my watch backwards, I get pierced when I am bored, I love taking stupid pictures......I would put one up on here, BUT C'mon! They are stupid Pictures... they should be viewed by FRIENDS...>!! I'm not into Shallow Ppl….Deep ppl attracts me! ~{{!Interrupt Me~{{! RoooooooaR!!!